Where has the time gone? The date March 19th feels like it was eons ago, but the pain and memories of the event makes it feel like it happened yesterday. Mommy and daddy miss you Lincoln and Annaleise, not a day goes by without thinking about you both. You may not live in our arms, but you live in our hearts.
I am so sorry my little babies, Mommy could not save you.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Inspired by the old school stuff
I saw this quote from a great group in someones profile recently and have decided to adopt it, so thank you to the random person who inspired me.
"'Cause you can't, you won't, and you don't stop" - Beastie Boys, Sure Shot
"'Cause you can't, you won't, and you don't stop" - Beastie Boys, Sure Shot
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Due date
The day has come and gone. I wish I felt much different, but I don't. The feeling of impending doom is gone, but what remains is still the deep sadness and longing that life had turned out differently.
August 8, 2011. We awoke childless and fell asleep still childless. We aren't really childless though, we have to beautiful and perfect babies in the hereafter just waiting for us. Two beautiful and perfect babies that I ache to hold again and don't have to give up. I remember vividly (and with pain) that moment when they took Lincoln and Annaleise away for the final time and realized in that moment that I would never get to hold them again. I wish I had a few more minutes but I know that unless it was a lifetime, it never would have been "enough" time for us.
I wish I could tell you all I was better and that the passage of the due date miraculously healed us in some way, but it didn't. We are coming to realize that our lives will really never be the same.
August 8, 2011. We awoke childless and fell asleep still childless. We aren't really childless though, we have to beautiful and perfect babies in the hereafter just waiting for us. Two beautiful and perfect babies that I ache to hold again and don't have to give up. I remember vividly (and with pain) that moment when they took Lincoln and Annaleise away for the final time and realized in that moment that I would never get to hold them again. I wish I had a few more minutes but I know that unless it was a lifetime, it never would have been "enough" time for us.
I wish I could tell you all I was better and that the passage of the due date miraculously healed us in some way, but it didn't. We are coming to realize that our lives will really never be the same.
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